Sunday, March 06, 2005
YESH!!! i DID IT!! so this is A.P!wheee! anyway. this post has sensitive/supernatural content. for your mental well-being please read the blue words at the end of this post. i know this topic is freaky.i didnt hesistate. i picked up my wicca book. bad, i knew i was on the losing end
then i ran down and looked up A.P (astral projection) again, online. in case you dont know what a.p is, it happens to everyone when they sleep. their soul/spirit leaves their body and travel in astral planes, thats why sometimes your color dreams seem so real (oh well, it
is real).
then i felt tired, so i went to take a nap. tried a.p, but coz i didnt clear my thoughts beforehand so my soul couldnt float. (at this point, if you think im crapping, i suggest u stop reading anyhow.)
then i drifted off to lala land without consiously projecting my soul. i thought i failed. then i had this dream. i was with some friends. and some other strangers. i was so sure the 'person' i talked to in my dream wasnt human. she must be what they call a 'higher being', those that guide you by communicating to you through your dreams
the thing is, i asked her a question, was waiting for her answer, but i never got to hear it coz then i got force-sent back to my body. maybe i probed a lil too far, i should have asked other stuff *grrr*
i crash landed and i started to panic. (when u return to your body, its okay if you cant move, i read). but i wasnt very calm, i struggled. its like, you re in your body. you know it. but you cant move shit. its easy to say "nahh i wont panic if i cant move" but when u experience it you might end up going crazy.
then i stopped and realized something scary. i wasnt scared, coz ive actually been though this a lot of times before.
when it first happened, i thought it was some evil thing trying to kill me by taking over my body or what, but no, its just my astral being (soul) crash landing, and it has yet to align with my body yet, thats why you cant move
i used to get so scared by that it overturned my life for a period of time. cant think properly, cant sleep, worrying the whole day, tests totally fail (all zero) and people around me were worrying for me
now i know, ive finally, finally got the answer.
and thinking about the dream again - its the future, it got to be
to everyone else : please dont try astral projection unless you have really read about it kae, its still a unresearched subject and things you wouldnt wanna contemplate might happen.
and one thing - once you read about how to do A.P, you will be able to do it unconsiously - that was what i realized. and once u are able to do it.. you will always be able to, unwillingly or willingly. so if this whole idea freaks you out please do not do any reading up on it. please. i know what the consequences might be but im all for it, coz i...
believe in wicca
im sorry, jesus
xoxo
joce-lyn
3:23 PM
